suck up

today's CY birthday!!

somehow he's not very upbeat bout it. didn't really want to celebrate. he even slept before midnight last night, so i couldn't wish him right when the clock striked 12.

won't blame him, i wouldn't want to celebrate it myself either if i were turning 30 and suddenly found myself out of job.

i'll just have to be super supportive bout it so i hope to cheer him up during our dinner this weekend, which should have been tomorrow night if not for this long-time-no-see high school senior friend who is currently in town.

not to say i'm not into meeting. this guy was one of my best friend during school time and we haven't meet in like 4 years, so it just make sense to spend a lil' time catching up and showing him around town.

funny how time has changed, me from being so close with him to now feeling a bit worried for tomorrow. i'm not even sure now whether we could enganged in proper and natural conversations.

ok leave this to worry when the time comes.

had a long talk with my boss today, about my future in the company among other things. somehow i decided it's good to stop thinking bout leaving and start to buck myself up to be better in what i'm currently doing. at least i can sell myself better if i do attempt another jump.

which should be the right thing to do. the offers so far has all been a disappointment. yes i know money isn't everything, but it's still a big chunk of it.

especially if i'm gonna always suck up to starhub like today. requested them to reconnect sports channels so that i can watch current nasdaq-100 tennis matches despite higher charges. i figured since nadal and clijsters made it to semifinal it's gonna be worth it.

talking about nadal, the quarterfinal replay match is showing now on my newly-reconnected star sports.

so later...


...ed

midnight tremors

if i were still in japan like during my study years, the shake last night wouldn't be as frightful.

but in s'pore, tremors like that did make mind wonders. well, at least mine did.

i was reading on bed before sleep when i felt my body swaying from side to side. funny coz my first thought was, gosh, it must be my heart beating extra-strong till my whole body moves (which is stupid, but hey, it was midnight and my brain was about to shut off)...

then i noticed the hanged clothes swaying too, i thought it must be the wind, but no, the windows was closed. i went outside the bedroom, and the fan was shaking too. oh god, i thought the building must be collapsing or sth.

so i grabbed my wallet and handphone and headed out. the nice lady next-next door also went out at the moment, and she was like 'did you feel the shaking??'. confirmed, i was not hallucinating.

few other neighbours from the next block went out and kind of looked around too. so must not be my building problem then. that's a relief. i was beginning to look around deciding what to do if the building strated collapsing.

ok one by one stunned ppl locking themselves back in, so i followed suit. ok the fan stopped shaking. my housemate in next bedroom was still talking in the phone like nothing happened. switched on tv to see if there was any news about this but didn't seem any so i returned to bed. the clock striked 12.28am.

it turned out this morning that the tremors was due to 8.7 richter scale earthquake offshore of sumatra island, causing panic all the way to malaysia, thailand, and of course, singapore.

what a night!


...ed

je suis de retour

man i'm sleepy and my fingers are painful.

spent 6 hrs in an uncomfortable bus ride from kl today. somehow the stupid chair couldn't be adjusted, causing my head swaying from side to side everytime i tried to sleep. plus, there was this plump lady on my left so i couldn't moved much to that side, straining my overall posture.

i must remember to take executive coach next time.

arrived home, watched a bit sumo which i taped while i was away, then went to bedok to pick up my guitar. the seller was indeed young, he said he's selling the guitar 'coz his mum bought him a new one for birthday.

the guitar looks quite pretty. and i must say i felt kinda cool too carrying the guitar all the way back, like kinda hip or sth, hehe... though i did feel a bit concious, like do i carry it right..etc.

been practising some chords just now and gosh, that thing realy hurts my fingers. no wonder they keep saying ppl'll develop calluses from playing them.

but still that won't keep me from practising.

CY just called me, which should be normal as i always got it around this time but just now, the voice was soft in almost whispering manner and the conversation was kinda rushed and shortened. i sincerely hope that was because of sleepiness rather than some other human company there or that sort of thing. maybe i'm extra-paranoid but still....

ok now i'm wide awake and worried.


...ed

calling it off

decided not to attend the TI interview in kl.

i was chatting wizz this colleague about it (in low voice 'coz this is a sensitive matter), and somehow she made me realize it's not worth to waste my time and other ppl's time coz why take all the trouble when i had decided even before the interview?

and come to think bout it, it's not like i can convince them to change certain things, like the "place" where i'm gonna work.

so i took out my formal shirt, pants and my black shoes from my under-table luggage and dumped them in my office drawer and there you go, a much lighter luggage.

talking bout luggage, i don't know bout them but somehow i always seem like carrying tons of things everytime i pack.

like this weekend trip. i managed to fit my stuff into this one medium classy jean backpack (which i bought in paris GAP last time), and some other unfitting stuff into this samsung mobile E700A plactic bag but when i came in the office, my colleague have just one tiny bag to carry home.

i'm not even sure what i put in considering i have my own clothes at my parents house (at least i know i have, though i need to search for them for sure).

well at least i've decided not to bring my new guitar home. won it from ebay spore last nite for $41, and it was just the first time i used ebay! heard bout it before but never know that we have spore local version of it.

i haven't pick up the guitar yet as i'm going off to kl tonight, so cannot claim 100% success just yet. supposed could have arranged to pick it up during lunch break just now but no point to rush. from our sms conversation, seems like the seller's a student. i just hope he's the one that take cares of his guitar.

the haru-basho sumo in osaka will have its final bout this sunday, but i'll miss it in kl. so far my favourite, asashoryu has won all his bouts and i'd love to see how he handles much stronger opponents these few days. already set-up my vcr and my housemate better don't change the cable channel while i'm gone, otherwise some earth-shattering things will happen.

ok i've had a light tea-break time meal, tidy up my lose-end works and now waiting 5.15pm...

maybe i'll go chat with this good-looking colleague just joined in this monday..u know, just to kill time.


...ed

confused

it's a lovely morning but i'm stuck in the office with work that i don't feel like doing.

sigh.

somehow i'm on low drive. perhaps because it's good friday this week and i'm already in a holiday mood.

but i know i should be grateful that i still secured this job, when CY company is going to move to china end of the mth.

it worries me coz jobs not coming in easy recently and i feel helpless coz i do wanna help but don't know how, except forwading jobs etc but i'm really not the one fighting in interview frontlines.

me on the other hand, considering of changing job too as i don't see myself still doing this in 5 years time, heck i'm even sure the company is still around in 5 years time, and it'd be too late then age wise to start a new career.

considered moving back to kl, but then after living in japan during my study years and singapore the whole my working years, going back to city like kl doesn't sound too tempting.

first, i wouldn't want to get caught by some religious officials during my night-outings and be treated like criminals.

then, i wouldn't want my phone line to get disconnected because somehow i never received the bills and upon complaining, get scolded by the phone officer who said i should come collect the bills at their office if i failed to receive them (btw, i swear i'd explode like an overdue time bomb if i were in my father's shoe the time it happened).

i mean, the whole city is full of inconveniences, and don't even get me started on customer service. public transport is long hopeless case and even the traffic is a match for bangkok rush hrs.

and god forbid i'll end up eating any of those halal pig-intestine-wrapped sausages.

typical.

ok i better get back to work.



...ed

kim's back!

kim clijsters won indian wells pacific open tennis!! this is only her 2nd tournament after missing almost whole of last year to wrist injury, and still she managed to beat top seeded lindsay davenport!

ok i'm happy :0

next coming up in miami...justine h.hardenne.


...ed

a night with a boogeyman

gosh am i irritated...

here i am sitting labelling my cds, and not more than 5 minutes ago i uncapped my cd marker and now i cannot seem to find the cap...

where can it be???? ..... i swear the earth must has somehow swallowed my marker pen cap up or sth.. only it seems impossible cause it has to go through the whole 6 floors beneath me first...

oh well looks like i'm gonna have to buy a new marker now...sigh...

anyway...

oh yeah, the boogeyman movie last friday was entertaining! though the whole ghost-in-the-cupboard plot does sound stupid, it just showed one have to take the whole production into account before shutting a movie out.

my heart was in rollercoaster the whole time. poor CY had to cover face with bag everytime the scenes got mysteriously uneventful, coz that's how horror movies goes, sth cropped up when we least expect it.

it was enjoyable, till we went to the carpark after the movie and couldn't find our bike. there were 3 storeys of basement parking lots and we had no idea where it was, and i must say, i didn't take it that well. i was tired, sleepy and the heat at the carpark obviously didn't help.

we ended up going outside, traced from which entrance we entered and voila, found it at the end but the mood was ruined. it was such a bad way to conclude an enjoyable time-out.

anyway, still better off than other normal nights :o


...ed

ok everything's good!

well i got my dry cleaning safe n sound alright.

which was really a relief. boy i should come up with some sort of automatic reminder to remind me of these things.

twice i forgot to pay my credit card bills and ended up with even higher bills from late payment charge. though i managed to get them waived at the end but still, i wouldn't prefer to make those kind of phone calls every now and then.

and surely the suspense of waiting that dry cleaning shop to open to check whether my expensive coat was not traded out yet isn't very good for the heart.

work still goes on as usual, where things go rather more smoothly. let's just say the things i'm supposed to take care of isn't exactly there anymore, so there are some free time when i can pay more attention to world news or just socializing around bonding with colleagues in between learning new technical stuff.

made a bus trip to old airport road for lunch today. friday is the only day me and my lunch kaki always travel to land far far away from our office to eat. though the fact is i couldn't eat those famous hokkien mee or lorr mee or whatever chinese food there is, and the heat almost made my blood boiled, i still enjoyed being in significant distance from our workplace and dozing off in afternoon post-lunch bus ride was such a thrill!

will attend pilates class after work today, then watch late movie with CY using free tickets i've won from starhub recently, maybe boogeyman which i reckon is more suitable for late hr cinema, rather shows like robots which you should watch it with your fairy god mother...

watching late night horror/thriller movie... sounds like a teenager's escapade. well, i still have it in me!!


...ed

5 weeks overdue

i forgot to pick up my dry cleaning!!!

it's 5 weeks overdue. urghh..i cannot believe i'm this forgetful. if not for joey mentioning he forgot his dry cleaning in 'friends', i would have never remembered it at all.

and i love that winter jacket that i sent for cleaning. eventhough it was on company's money when they sent me to japan last time, it's still a rare purchase from osaka.

can't wait to call the shop tomorrow.. and they better still have it!


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this grudge

oh my god.

yaz called me out of a sudden. i was in the office on thurs and that voice swooped in and talked as if everything's been fine and normal all these days.

well mind you it could have, if we had not had this intimate r/ship before and became completely lost in touch for like two years.. and suddenly came about discussing wedding invitation.

i mean, this is the person who walked on my right everytime we crossed the road so that if we happened to be hit by passing cars, i wouldn't be the one would have been hit first.

is this normal? being lost without a trace and came back as casually as it can possibly be and invite the ex for the wedding??

it's ok if we had closed it well enough, u know, and being friends all these while. i don't mind. but i can't help feel a bit like a slap in the face. it's as if this person's daring me, hey look i can be married to other ppl...

dun get me wrong, i'm not holding a grudge or anything like that, please, but i feel this isn't very appropriate, and at least one party isn't be considering enough and i'm almost certain it's not me.

anyway, it would interesting to see how the marriage goes, u know, considering what this person was while with me last time.

after all, i'm the one holding the innermost secret which definitely won't go well with the wedding, or even the overall idea of it.

if only i could actually make it to the day, which is tomorrow more than 200 miles away, and sing titanic's 'my heart will go on' like this good friend of mine did in his ex's wedding, in a sincere delivering with a glitter of hope...

...that sth would end up sinking...


...ed

that one phone call

my dad called from kl, saying got this TI ppl asking him whether i'm still interested working there...

wow the measure they took. they dropped me mails but i never replied. actually not really keen on working there leh. don't even remember why i applied in the first place.

1st of all, it's so near my parents house in kl and God knows i dun even have a room there. i've been comfortable here, though of course it'd better if i can buy my own property, but other than that it has been great...

i mean, i luv my parents, but staying together is entirely a different thing.

plus i think my company here is better off... so much better. well at least from the look of it. everybody knows first impression can go miles.

and i have my CY here too, and it's nice having someone u like nearby....

so guess i'll just have to go, u know, just so at least i can say i'm doing my parents' bidding. can poke around and see how much they offer too, and maybe ask unreasonable pay there till they have no choice but to give up, haha!!

well... since i'm going back kl anyway for good friday.

talking of which, i still haven't buy return ticket yet. damn!


...ed

down with the arrogance

my deepest sympathy for the family of that secret italian agent, nicola calipari who was shot dead in iraq by the american troops as he escorted a released hostage to freedom.

makes one wonder how many innocent iraqis were killed the same way, doesn't it?

it's sad that it is only when westerners die do these stories get ppl's attention and makes someone bother to count the dead.

who's actually on the dark side??


...ed

lucky tuesday

what a nice day to end a working day.

we had this new product training all the way at woodlands from 1pm, which means we had to cut short all those boring reports and leave for an early lunch shortly after 11.30am, then took a comfortable and most importantly, claimable cab ride from boonkeng.

and the day got even better when the course somehow ended early at 2.30pm instead of intended 5pm. of course no one in their right mind would want to return to our office after that (except well, a few who i'm pretty sure came from a slightly different species and thus, not significant in this case).

that was why it was quite funny when each of us looked speechless not to mentioned guilty when our boss who probably had not done any good deed yet today, decided that it was a good chance to do so by offering us car ride back to the office while we were waiting at the bus stop, not knowing we were happily discussing where to spend the rest of the day at, at that point.

well i ended up at queenstown which i had not been for almost 2 years. wanted to buy sport shoes but the one that i had my eyes on ended up no size. what a crap. and this was not the 1st time. somehow i have the tendency to wanting sth that is not available. or maybe i just have the tendency to like sth that other ppl like. either way, the point is, the shoe was still not available. ok not that lucky on this.

tomorrow another day training...


...ed

like my own

haha at last...my own blog :0

well it's not that i've never written blogs before, been writing pieces here and there, and at least one of my friend had become victim of me mumbling my stuff all over through yahoo mails some time ago...

but still... this is such a joyous occasion.

though i may be a bit late on board, don't i? this thing has been hip for some time now i'm not sure it's still that hip now haha.. but u know that's the least of my concern.

the point is i can go mumbling on and on here and nobody's will mumble back. how great is this?? it's not like last friday when i did this technical presentation to the whole department at work then the questions came at the end faster than you can say 'the end'.

seriously, don't ppl have better things to do then make you look bad in front of all your colleagues? you would think plates of free curry puffs and sandwich would have preoccupied them or sth.

anyway, i've also started another new thing last week. pilates! it's about time to take corrective action to this defective back and what's better than the most hip exercise in town? just be clear that i'm not old or season or middle-aged or anything, i'm sure this back pain resulted from my overdoing my sit-ups for my abs.

the thing goes, you gain some and you lose some.

and i decided last week to learn guitar too. i went to this bar in chinatown kl (was it hello bar? gosh i don't remember) where there were a live band singing throughout the night (p/s: the lady singer quite 'chio' liao hehe..) . one of the guy played guitar and i enjoyed the songs very much eventhough i don't understand chinese.

music does break language barrier.

i'd have long wanted to learn a musical instrument. but the chance were just not there. my parents prefered us to undergo extra religious classes when we were a kid, causing the only musical instruments i'd ever learned was clarinet.

sigh.

and i figured if i don't do this now most probably i wont do it at all. so i must include this in one of the things i want to do before i turn 30, which the rest of the list i'm going through now. not that i'm turning 30 anytime soon, it's still ages ok, but u know, it's always good to be prepared...

nite nite!


...ed

takin'it ez

comin'up