excuse me for this i just want a kiss

it's that time in my life again when i feel like living the song lyrics. you know, when suddenly things happen in rhythms and you start waltzing you way through the pathway.

so on the way back from work just now, i stopped by the music store to buy kelly clarkson's my december album. who cares about what crap clive davis was complaining, i so dig her new songs.

maybe not those you-hurt-me-so-i'm-gonna-hunt-your-whole-clan-down numbers, which by the way build most of her album mood, but the other positive notes ones.

i don't know if those melody could break my heart or save me. one thing sure, this fire is getting hot again but i'd still touch the flame 'coz i'm a curious cat.

so far instead of burning, it tingles in a good way. you know, like the after-sensation following that extra wasabi in your sushi piece.

although someimes i'm confusing as hell. i'm north and south. i'll probably never have it all figured out, but what i know is i wasn't meant to walk this world without ever experiencing this.

the only lesson i learned now, the hard way potentially, is that something can never be divided, as abundant as it appears to be.

not equally anyway. that's why we have prime numbers.

anyway, i'm not gonna worry about my timing, i wanna get it right. i hope i creep where i belong and finding not what i knew all along.

man i feel very much alive.

although it feels weird being home on thursday night. normally i'd be at the bowling alley around this time. it's the step ladder final tonight but our team already missed the cut. we could have done better but i guess it's just impossible to have all things to go your way.

i don't wish bad things but i don't wish those bowlers well tonight.

ok maybe this is the time to actually spin those damn-i-hate-you-i'm-gonna-scream numbers.



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