shut up + back to basics

i have a bad mouth.

not physically of course. my lips are wonderfully proportional. at least i think it is.

it's just that sometimes i say things i should not say and it gets me into trouble. it's like a defect. you know, when you purchase something from the shop and it comes with a guarantee period from any anomaly? just that instead of being able to repair this defect, i have to live with it.

and man my mouth was in full force yesterday.

a new female engineer joined our department. it's always an exciting thing when new engineers coming in because people are curious. they'd easily become the topic of our conversations during lunch time crap-talking sessions.

only that this time i made this comment about that new girl, that 'she is a stretched version of this ex-colleague' unknowingly to her own boyfriend, who was having breakfast with us. right on his face.

and guess what, since they were not going public with the relationship it's not that he could say anything to me. but the damage is done. i'm already a bit uncomfortable when he's around.

lesson learned, always check someone's background before making any comment because god knows that person is the person-you-talk-with's girldfriend, or sister, mother, god-mother, pet or anything.

i don't know what they are thinking. people talk about things like this, especially the juicy stuffs. it's only natural. when we always get our brains to solving technical issues, it's the only time we feel like human with decent social lives.

for instance, take yesterday, when the CEO of the company mentioned that our company is not doing very well in the market and so there will be restructuring. then later in the afternoon another mail came, this time from our own managing director, saying that they are now working on 'voluntary workforce renewal' details.

sure enough if you walk through the isles of cubicles that afternoon, you'd see small groups of people appeared out of nowhere like mushrooms after the rain in every isles. it's as if the lecturer just gave the whole class an assignment :-

'voluntary workforce renewal : discuss'.

everybody has their own speculations. it's almost felt festive. only that it's not actually a good news. duh, it's that R word they were talking about.

it's ironic that our company is not doing well when singapore's economy as a whole is booming. booming economy always trailed by increase of prices and stuff, so we are the worse case ones. now that it's unlikely to hope for big increments or bonuses this year, yet we had to face 2% gst increase islandwide, and in case of that damn starhub, a $15 to $25 dollar increase of the monthly sports channel subsription.

man i must learn how to live without sports channel. or do something about this tennis addiction. do they have rehabilitation center for this kind of problem? it's hard. i just don't want to follow federer vs nadal match using internet online live scoreboard. i'd feel like a loser.

it's a relief i've already bought this christina aguilera's back to basic concert tour tickets worth $188 ages ago, bcoz in time of company turmoil like this, purchasing hundreds of dollars for a pop-act ticket is surely an extreme and irresponsible gesture.

the concert is tonight. i'm so excited i'm thinking to go orchard and buy things i can wear to the concert tonight. it has been ages since i last went to one. i mean, i don't even know what people wear to concerts nowadays.

i'm going to changi in half an hour to pickup my friend from bangkok who's going to join me tonight. we are so gonna paint the singapore indoor stadium red.



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