finding nic

it's halfway through the weekend. saturday night is like weekend half time, and i'm celebrating it as it is. sit back and enjoy.

i went to pasir ris mainland tropical fish farm today. actually i just started to keep gold fish since last week! partly because this friend gave me his 2ftx1ft tank complete with filter and lights, which only left me with, well, water and fish to add. and of course, the knowledge and effort to keep the fish alive.

so i have now nic, peach, truffle and mendisa as my housemates. they are oranda gold fish. nic and truffle are flaming red, while peach and mendisa are more orangey.

i'd sit quietly in front of tank on my bean bag and just observe the fish swimming around for minutes. i feel that i'm learning new things about them by the moments. like nic is the active one while truffle like to float quietly as if meditating at bottom tank.

i have another friend who's working in this fish industry (research or import-export, i don't remember) mentioned to me that buying fish could be addictive. well, i'm not sure about that but seeing my tank barely full with only 4 little gold fish, i went of to the fish farm today, u know, just to see around.

and ended up with 2 more gold fishes, which i swear it's not a sign of addiction at all. this time they are fantails. or at least i think they are. there were barely anybody for me to ask at the fish farm, and when there were, they either did not look friendly enough or were some foreigners who i doubt speak much english. plus, there were dogs, looking every bit like stray dogs, roaming around making me just wanted to get out of there asap.

surfing the gold fish website (koko's gold fish, i love this website!), i'm pretty much sure they are fantail. just that ryukin does look similar, so they could be ryukin too. i chose a red one with white at the head below the nose area, which i named KC and an a calico (red, white stripes with black patches all over) which I named N-Korr.

can't wait to show CY next week ;p i wish i could take photos of them and post here but i'm a bit afraid to use flash. this may sound stupid, but would the flash blinds the fish or sth?? or cause them stress? i cannot believe not even one fish website have anything on this.

so there goes my saturday half time.

i met this fella, DV during silicon technology workshop at NTU yesterday, as weird as it sounds, at toilet entrance. we changed contacts and DV was hoping to visit me sometimes. well nothing has been decided so far. as much as i can use some company who doesn't grow any dorsal fins during this weekend, i hesitate to make the first move partly because if anything does not go right, at least i did not initiate it (hmmm, when i put this into writings, doesn't sound like a decent thing to practise, does it?).

i guess i'll just look forward to changing the fish tank for the first time tomorrow then.


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life can be so cold

i was on the train yesterday, to join the weekly badminton session at thomson cc. living in the east, i felt like i was on a quest, travelling half the island. just that instead of sword, i carried a badminton racket. well, anyway, there was this guy sitting beside me inside the train, doing essay questions while referring to this tiny brown book.

glancing surreptitiously, i found out it was the bible he was holding, and the questions he was doing went like 'what do you think jesus would say to ', or 'what do you think of the '.

i found it interesting. when i studied religion when i was young, we were just given stuff to remember. we just read off the cream of the holy quran but never really read the actual God's words in it. there certainly never been chance to question or to really think and digest any particular religious affairs during the classes. we recited the holy words in its original text without knowing the meanings.

so when there's a turmoil following the blasphemous and offending cartoon published by the danish newspapers and several european countries thereafter, i was not totally surprised.

there were mixed reactions. some decided to burn flags, other boycott danish products, some burnt embassies, some initiated cartoons on holocaust, some started to harass danish ppl, and some even threatened their safety.

the levels of how the muslim intrepreted and then reacted to the event are largely different. it just showed how divided we are in terms of religious understandings. we were easily influenced under the name of so-called religious acts because the understanding of the religion itself is shallow. we follow some religious personnel sometimes ever so blindly rather than the words of God, which we never really digest in our lives.

seeing the mess of the world affairs now, i think it totally fits when mariah carey sang her 'fly like a bird' number in the 48th grammy awards last thursday. it was such a powerful gospel performance, and i loved it when she ran all over the stage and waved her non-microphone hand like a maniac 'coz i can totally feel that she really felt the song. i've been playing that clips over and over again and enjoyed the tingling sensation all over my spine during the gospel peak.

madonna's performance was nothing spectacular, mainly because i've seen her performing the routines during mtv europe awards sometimes back. other than purple leotard she donned this time, and she no longer wore the USD20,000 diamond eyelashes, the rest were exactly the same. you'd think a creative performer like her would do sth different considering how global our tv programs are.


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just watch me burn

martina hingis unexpectedly won her first match against maria sharapova yesterday in tokyo toray pan pacific open semifinal. not only did she beat her, she actually thrashed her. so much for power will prevail over craftiness that currently informally written all over the tennis world.

the stupid starhub cable never showed that on tv, unreliable as always. so i just resorted to enjoying all the comments on wta tennis forum last night. haha take that those doubters! i was so engrossed on maria thrashings till before i knew it, it was already close to midnight and i had not even showered yet.

however good times always never last. hingis was in turn trashed today in the final against elena dementieva. urghh. i hate it when she lost. i don't even dare to open the wta forum now in case i'd cut my wrist by the time i reach end of the page. heck i even went for 2 rounds of lunch today just to make myself feel better.

call me crazy but that's how i feel. i'm sentimental for things like this. after all, not like i have much going on to occupy my times from worrying about other ppl's fate thousands of kilometres away who doesn't even know i'm exist.

my family already went back to kl last friday after staying in my house for about a week. as much as i enjoyed their company, i'm glad that i have my life back once again. most of all, i'm glad i have my bedroom back. my brother and his wife came over too so my mum suggested that i gave my bedroom to them and i could sleep in the living room. can you belive that?

it's bad enough that i don't have my own room everytime when i'm at my parents house, now i don't even have room and privacy under my own roof? after all, isn't bedroom supposed to be the most personal space?

but of course, i had to play a good host and kept all those feelings inside me. in fact, i never make my deepest feelings known to my parents, ever. i even stopped by raffles hotel to buy this expensive 7-layered chocolate cake after a day work so that they can taste this divine desert, just to found myself back home and see other ppl sleeping on my bed. i had to sleep early too because my pc and my xbox were all inside my bedroom.

so of course i'm glad that they are gone.

not that i'll be anything short of activities when i was left alone. i went to my office's department manager open house in bukit gombak yesterday. that's like all the way across the island from where i am. i had to buy newspaper to make myself busy along the one hour train ride.

then i took a trip to hougang for my close friend one-month baby celebration. i didn't get to eat much here as i didn't know whether the food was pork free. plus, after a week of home cooked food while my parents were here, i can really do with a light dinner to bring down my weight a little. i still have couple of containers with food inside my fridge that i don't know what to do with.

i saw this biotherm advertisement inside newspaper few days ago that they just released this anti-rides line peel for men to promote skin renewals and reduce wrinkles. so i dropped by tampines mall on my way back from hougang to take a look. it was at 82 dollars, which is a tad expensive, but i guess that's a small price to pay to look and feel good. not that i'm old or anything, these lines on my forehead are totally result of excessive thinking. at late 20s, you just gotta be prepared. considering the unhealthy environment we live in, it's normal to have premature aging signs. you just have to make effort to look good.

after all, i'm sure i won't be asked to surrender my own bedroom in any circumstances if i manage to get a legal lifelong partner to sleep with.



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