so much for my happy ending

it's one of those time.. again.. when you feel demoralized and everything just won't matter. one of my dear colleague said he was quitting today, and that was after i heard about another resignation during yesterday's team meeting.

so there were 2 of them. maybe there would be another one tomorrow and it would be a hatrick. it would then probably followed by a slow death of our acquintance, if the funeral parlour in front of the office is anything to go by.

ok it was not actually a funeral parlour but some temporary storage trailers but i swear they look like one.

these news just hit me off pretty hard. sometimes i just wished that things would remain as they are. you know, like we live in a time vacuum or something. i would then have all my close friends nearby having fun all the time and stay forever 25.

but now i felt just like those in Friends when rachel got a job in paris.

during lunch i returned to my cubicle and browse some sites that offer higher degree learnings. hmm maybe i should take some part-time course and try to change field. especially after my boss doesn't think i'm doing anything.

even if he was, it's not like i can strike a millionare doing what i'm doing. i mean, how many of those top millionares out there are from engineering fields?exactly.

i must first distance myself from facebook and find something constructive to do with my life, like thinking about my future and find an electrician to fix my water heater.

want to blame someone that i was always occupied at night after work? blame the facebook. it's the place where you make artificial friends that keep your friends counter going and nothing else. seriously.

you see, when a bunch of friends invited me for a durian fiesta recently, they were not originally my facebook friends, and we had fun.


and the durian was superb. we had it at this durian king stall in chinatown just beside that famous frog porridge restaurant. i didn't notice this place before, probably because the only time i went to chinatown, was during chinese new year festival to see the kereta ayer opera.

what was good about this place was that it had all the different types of durians nicely labelled, so you won't get cheated as you most probably would if you were in geylang.

those geylang durian sellers just wait while sharpening their knife by the chopperboard, on which people keep willingly put their heads on. it's amazing really.


facebook so-called friends just dropped into town and treated like you didn't exist. i guess, we are all 2-dimensional substance to the other internet end, who goes to screensavers whenever we idle, or downloads torrents while on standby mode.

another non-facebook friend invited me for a movie last weekend. we watched red hill. ok that was what i mistakenly called the movie until my friend corrected me. red hill was of course, the mrt station, and the movie was red cliff.

it was just another chinese epic war movie based on the famous 3-kingdoms power struggle period in chinese history. nevertheless, i enjoyed it. it was a kind that the good guy's army was greatly outnumbered and you kinda wait for every tricks to unfold during the war while fighting the bad guy's army. in the end, the good prevails and all of us left happy.

of course that was only limited in the cinema theater. the reality in the real world isn't exactly so. george bush will prevail, as will abdullah ahmad badawi. there will be no happy ending. if cinderella was in our world, she would be the maid that fall to her death when being forced to clean the balcony of a high rise hdb.

i'm not doing much better either. if i don't know any better, i would think this is all retribution. it's karma. i must be job hopping all my life in my previous life, making friends and then leaving them in misery, ignoring my facebook contacts, and being an assholes on the roads.

maybe i should discuss this in facebook's forums.




...ed
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